"life is but a pretense"

just keep smiling
just keep smiling
just keep smiling smiling smiling.
yeahs. just F*CK OFF.

one person outside
another inside.

i sat infront of the television
and tears just fell.
i've been suppressing it for
as long as i can remember.
i couldnt take it any more.
and just like that. i cried.
i promised to be a big girl
i promised not to cry
i promised to be strong.
but i couldnt keep the promise.

it has been accumulating
proliferated and exploded.
taking over my conscious mind.
and i couldnt stop.
silly me. never been sillier.

i just needed you to tell me
"hey you can pull through this"


/ let the wind rob my emotions.
let the sea disguise my tears.